But one of them I've known from long time and the othet I'm not sure about but I want to give him a chance and not lose him cuz u know life is all about opportunities and destiny.

The first man I fell in love with or at least I thought I did cuz he keeps doing things that I don't like and he hurts me but I know he didn't mean it. But thinking about it no one changes and I've told him before to change the way he treats me and care more about me. But like always he doesn't change and I've learnt to deal with it cuz I thought that I'll be alone and lonely without him and no one would love me like he did so every time he ignores me or treat me like a crap. I don't mind cuz deep down I know that he loves me and can't live without me and thats just the way he is and if I love him I'll accept him just the way he is

Untill this other someone came into my life he was head over heels inlove with me, thats what he said to me, so I didn't really care cuz i thought that he maybe lying to me so i didn't shut him out so I could know if he really means what he says and it has been like a month since I've known him and he didn't disappointe me for a once. He calls me everyday he always tell me that he loves me and he told me about all the things he did in his last life and how his life is turned upside down and told me about his personal stuff so I guess he really trusts me and doesn't want to get away from me.

So right now my first love i told him that we should be just friends. He cried and said that he truely loves me and will never love someone like me and wants to change just to be with me.

The thing is I'm his first true love and we've been together long time and been through much but stills he is not the man that i always dreamed about yet i feel really terrible and i want to be with him just to not make him feel sad and to get him through his life and stick with him through all the bad times but every time i'm with him i feel guilty and not happy, like the happenies that ends with a guilt and thats sucks. 

So now i don't know what to do i'm really confused

I suggest that i stay with the first one as a friend and sees if he changed which i'm sure he won't and also stay with the second one as a friend also but no promises and just let my life lead me and see whatever life brings and I know that will be the best for me :)